starting over

So I did my post this morning. I think Seth caught a part here and there. He doesn’t read my blog anymore. He left to the store and called me saying he wanted me and we would talk when he got home.

So we did. He said he wants the D/s as bad as me. I can honestly say I don’t entirely believe that. He wants the M/s. I told him and made it clear that it is much more to me than that.

So he said if I want it to kneel in front of him. I did, and he put my slave bells on. They serve as a reminder. We both hear them jingling and remember our places.

Today I have a splitting migraine from the crying last night, so sex is probably out. But I suspect he is going to try anyways. Cause to me…that is the only reason he agreed to do it again.

I am trying so hard not to be negative, but it’s hard. He wants to know how to prove to me that it’s not just sex, and I don’t know what to say. The easiest thing for me would be no sex for a bit. But that what is was supposed to be when it all ended. I’m only saying a couple days….but what ever.

Wish me luck!

~~jane