Something good

Okay….well wow….So Sissy made it here finally. She left to go hang out with her friend. So I had to drink to catch up with her. lol Time, let me tell ya, was snail pacing! So we worked on my tattoo. Sissy called to check in and tell me her she was leaving soon. She asked how her kids were…asleep! Woot! She said good, then she can come home and kiss me….HEHE *Blush.

One of the cool things about her…She can read my mind. Like, seriously. Every thought or feeling I have, she has it to. She usually, okay always, says it first. I am to chicken shit. lol But she knows everytime.

When she got here she kissed me right away..I think I either melted into the couch or came. Maybe both. lol She kissed Seth to. So he didn’t feel left out. At one point we ended up sitting together and making out…But it wasn’t just making out…It was…wow I don’t think I even have words for it. It was moving and stirring and I have waiting so long to kiss her like that.  And as close as I was to her, it just wasn’t close enough. We ended up doing a new tattoo on my leg and just hanging out till late. When we finally went to bed….God…

You could cut the tension with a knife. I suggested a smoke. lol The three of us knew where things were heading, but nobody new how to start it or say it.

Before we had gone to bed Seth was acting wierd. I know he wanted to fuck her, but he was afraid to say it to me, I think. So I knew he was thinking about her. And I was thinking about her. We must have talked for a full 20 minutes about it, and then it was akward, well now we know but how to start.

Anyways…God…I don’t even have words to say what I am thinking or feeling. I have wanted to touch her so bad. To kiss her and feel her and touch her…and god…All these things….Everything about her is just so perfect and I watned my hands all over her. I let Seth fuck her most the time. I was content getting to lay with her and touch her. And her breast…They are just sooo perfect I can’t even explain it…Fuck I have so much to say, so much I want to explain…But there just aren’t enough words.

I got to go down on her and wow…just wow…It’s been along time since I have been in that position. And Seth was fucking me at the same time, so my hand weren’t free to wonder…But oh god…She reached down and grabbed my hair, she didn’t pull it, just held on to it. I could have stayed there all night! And then Seth made a comment about her shaving for his b-day this weekend…Omg It is so beautiful the way it is, I can’t wait to see it all.

God I sound like a perv. lol  Oh and there was this one moment…mmm. Seth had to go get batteries or something and we had a minute to ourselves. See, I had this idea that when her and I finally got to be together, it would be…what’s the word…Sensual, I guess. I didn’t want it to be about fucking. I wanted to be able to touch every part of her body and feel every part of her and taste her. To feel her rub herself against me….but I also knew that it probably wouldn’t happen. Seth even said, if he can’t be part of it then he didn’t want it to happen. But, now, It’s a different story. He got his, so he can’t bitch when I get mine.

Anyways, what I was getting to was he had to leave for a minute and her and I were laying side by side…And were kissing and she was rubbing against me and oh god! lol I sound like an idiot I know. But I wanted it to go on foever.

So those were some of the high points. The next morning was okay. There was no regrets or anything like that. But Seth had been acting all wierd. He decided that he is in love with her too. *Sigh…I am doing my best at handling this. I am secure enough with Sissy that I know he couldn’t take her from me  or anything along those lines. What gets me is that….The crafts, the doll house, the tattooing, college, all of it. I did it, so he had to also. This is just another thing. But this one, I don’t think I can drop. She is mine and I love her so much. And I can’t imagine not having her in my life. I have come to the point today that I am okay with it. Sissy says just leave things how they are and see how things go on there own. And I am good with that. I just wish Seth didn’t make it out to be the end of the world. I don’t need no more drama than I already got.

But that is my only rant. I am so happy right now, just reveling in the other night and the nights to come. Seth’s birthday is this weekend. So Sissy will be here friday and saturday. And my sister will be here, but she knows everything. lol I can’t wait, And it’s not even the sex thing. Well maybe alittle bit…But it’s here. I love having her here and getting to spend time with her!

Anyways, so yay for the great mood. I haven’t felt this good in a long time. I’m waiting for the bomb to crash…But I am being postive about it. lol Sissy says as long as we think positive then positive energy is what goes out.

So much for postive thinking…..

janey