Thursdays question/Clover Clamps

What is the scariest toy in the toybox? What do you wish would just get lost accidentally? http://blog.the-iron-gate.com/

In the begining I would have said the cane. That thing scared the crap out of me! It was even on the no list at one point. Now it was one of my favorite toys. The sting is undecribeable and the fact that is hurts twice…

Now my fear is clover clamps. My daddy bought me my first pair. They were first used as a punishment. So first test out was attatched to my twat lips and pulled on..it hurt like hell, but after they came off I relized it was kind of a turn on.

The second and last time we used them…well wow, that was just interesting. I do not come easily at all. And hardly ever more than once. I must have came 3 or 4 times in a row. Thye hurt so bad they brought me to tears! And hubby was pulling hte chain, and dear god I thought I was going to die..or my nipples were going to fall off.

Though it was so great and I want to play with them again..they still scare the shit outta me!

 

~~jane

A Beating

So my posts, as of late, have been a bit depressing. I really wish Sir would find something and stick with it. I need the consitancy. But we came to an agreement that there is no sex for 2 months. That was the orginal plan but it got fucked up. I don’t care if he jacks off…he does anyways. But i’m not jacking him off and he is not using me to get off. Of course it’s the other way too. So he has promised to stick by this and so far is.

So last night I asked him to massage a knot out of my back. I never ask him to do this. He either turns it into sex or finds a way not to do it. But it hurt so bad, and sex is out of the picture. So he agreed. He used this lame massager we got. It felt so good though. Of course I had just gotten out of the shower so I was naked…So it all led to a spanking, something I haven’t had in a long time. It hurts so much more than any of the toys. Then the crop and the cane.

He tried to hook my nipples up to the head board, but it didn’t work. That will take some practice. Then he move into a beating…

He hit and punched and kicked. The whole time I was on my knees. Next time I would like to try it where I can move around..maybe crumple up to protect what areas I can. It just seemed a bit staged, having to stay still. I was nervous when he tried to kick my cunt. I mean, fuck, it just doesn’t sound very pleasuable or erotic. But it was okay.  The hits in the ribs got to be a bit much. They started to hurt pretty bad. I don’t know how much he let go. But I handled it okay. He slapped me a few times and that lately is more painfull than normal.

I don’t remember why it stopped. Sir asked me if I wanted it to stop and I said yes. He sat down and held me and flood of tears began. I couldn’t stop them. I get this confused feeling, of “why the hell did I just let him do that” and “That’s kinda hot”. Then there is the naggin voice yelling “your twisted”. I don’t remember what finally pushed me to saying stop though. I know after it stops, whatever ‘it’ is, I always feel sad that it stopped. Even if I really couldn’t take anymore. Suddenly I regret saying to stop.

So that’s it for now…I saw a meme kitten did. I might do it later.

 

~~jane